7.9.12 - 7.15.12
Week in Review:
Monday (ok), Wednesday (good), Friday (good), Saturday (ok), Sunday (good) - Ashtanga
Wednesday (mat), (teach-mat: Tuesday, Thursday) - Pilates
better week in general I didn’t go on Thursday because I met with my advisor. I always struggle with that Thursday class (I hate that class), and I am happy that I didn’t go. I think I won’t go again this week, and maybe I won’t return. So far, Friday was my best class (still tomorrow to go…).
What makes a class good?
Use ujjayi breathing throughout (make sound-breathing!) hence focusing on the practice)
Remain focused (no concern with classmates)
Work carefully, yet fully (without over-stretching)
Non-judgement of my work (letting go - just proceeding throughout the asanas)
Movement improves as the class progresses
competition - I find that I get really annoyed when I sense people in class are competing to do a better practice than me/others. I feel like I am very sensitive to this because I understand competitiveness. In my dance background, pilates, and even in some non-ashtanga classes, I have a tendency to be competitive with my classmates.
One of the reasons I really love ashtanga is that I find it easy to let go of this need to compete. Ashtanga is a humbling practice and with a good teacher who is there to remind you that it doesn’t really matter how well you do the asanas (it’s the meditation, the focus, the awareness that counts), I really enjoy ashtanga as a personal meditative experience.
But every so often I find that I am near someone who has a competitive vibe, and it can really throw me off. Today was such a day. Luckily (and hopefully), I will have many more opportunities to work on this.
I wonder though, why it bothers me so much to be near others with a competitive spirit - is it really them, or is it coming from me, afterall?